Pushing through
Good evening friends,
I'm pretty sure I've been away too long but here I am! I'm 2 weeks out from my last chemo but I haven't really been able to fully enjoy the "break" because I've been sick most of the time. I still have some fatigue but I'm not sure if it's lingering from chemo (I'm not sure how long it takes for that to pass) or from my under-the-weather-ness. Either way, I'm more than ready to feel normal - as if I remember what normal feels like at this point. LOL I actually thought I was getting better but apparently I just had a day or two of "better" and then the cold, or whatever it is, kicked back in and made its traditional move from my head to my chest. I've not run a fever at any time over the past couple of weeks - well, it went up a little after my flu shot last week - but nothing to worry about. So, I'm pushing through. I'm just eager to get some energy back! I'm hoping this thing doesn't linger too long. I'd like to have a few days of freedom from treatment AND illness and the clock is ticking. I'm starting my Tamoxifen this week and I call to schedule radiation next week.
I think I've mentioned that I'll have to take Tamoxifen for 5 years...weeeeeell, my oncologist said that recent studies have shown that taking it LONGER than 5 years may improve outcomes. That means it could be a daily pill for 10 years peeps. 10...TEN...5+5...5X2...YES 10 years. Every day...for 10 years. a decade. I can do this, right? It's just a pill (that will cause raging hot flashes and possibly endometrial cancer...but "it will only be stage 1" he says...oh really, is that all?) Oh well, I will continue to roll with the punches with a smile on my face 'cause that's how I roll.
I should have a better idea about the radiation schedule in the next week. I have to complete my simulation before they can get started but I would say everything will happen pretty quickly once that step is completed. I'm mentally preparing for daily commutes for treatment. They tell me the fatigue could be as bad as chemo so we'll see. I'm going in with the attitude that it's going to be easier and, if I can squeeze it in, I'll take a quick nap and hope that helps. I have a family to tend to, work to be done and a life that doesn't include treatment, for which I need to prepare. I need energy to get this horrible steroid/treatment weight off. I've gained about 20 pounds (give or take) in the last round of chemo. Seriously, the one thing I thought when I heard CANCER was, "Well, at least I'll lose weight." WROOOOONG. This is the fattest I have been in my LIFE and I'm not a fan. Also, I hear that the weight is difficult to lose so I'm sure going to need to find that extra energy to go the extra mile. I can do this!
Speaking of fatigue, I'm going to go get some sleep.
Love to all,
Andee
<3 CRD Mommy's Little Angel
I'm pretty sure I've been away too long but here I am! I'm 2 weeks out from my last chemo but I haven't really been able to fully enjoy the "break" because I've been sick most of the time. I still have some fatigue but I'm not sure if it's lingering from chemo (I'm not sure how long it takes for that to pass) or from my under-the-weather-ness. Either way, I'm more than ready to feel normal - as if I remember what normal feels like at this point. LOL I actually thought I was getting better but apparently I just had a day or two of "better" and then the cold, or whatever it is, kicked back in and made its traditional move from my head to my chest. I've not run a fever at any time over the past couple of weeks - well, it went up a little after my flu shot last week - but nothing to worry about. So, I'm pushing through. I'm just eager to get some energy back! I'm hoping this thing doesn't linger too long. I'd like to have a few days of freedom from treatment AND illness and the clock is ticking. I'm starting my Tamoxifen this week and I call to schedule radiation next week.
I think I've mentioned that I'll have to take Tamoxifen for 5 years...weeeeeell, my oncologist said that recent studies have shown that taking it LONGER than 5 years may improve outcomes. That means it could be a daily pill for 10 years peeps. 10...TEN...5+5...5X2...YES 10 years. Every day...for 10 years. a decade. I can do this, right? It's just a pill (that will cause raging hot flashes and possibly endometrial cancer...but "it will only be stage 1" he says...oh really, is that all?) Oh well, I will continue to roll with the punches with a smile on my face 'cause that's how I roll.
I should have a better idea about the radiation schedule in the next week. I have to complete my simulation before they can get started but I would say everything will happen pretty quickly once that step is completed. I'm mentally preparing for daily commutes for treatment. They tell me the fatigue could be as bad as chemo so we'll see. I'm going in with the attitude that it's going to be easier and, if I can squeeze it in, I'll take a quick nap and hope that helps. I have a family to tend to, work to be done and a life that doesn't include treatment, for which I need to prepare. I need energy to get this horrible steroid/treatment weight off. I've gained about 20 pounds (give or take) in the last round of chemo. Seriously, the one thing I thought when I heard CANCER was, "Well, at least I'll lose weight." WROOOOONG. This is the fattest I have been in my LIFE and I'm not a fan. Also, I hear that the weight is difficult to lose so I'm sure going to need to find that extra energy to go the extra mile. I can do this!
Speaking of fatigue, I'm going to go get some sleep.
Love to all,
Andee
<3 CRD Mommy's Little Angel