Breast cancer...aren't you scared?
Right now, the easy answer is no. Really. Now, let's go back a few months and get real. I've been honest about the number of times I've cried over my diagnosis...I think the count is 3.
As you know by now, I did not have a source tumor anywhere else. The cancer started where we found it and you can go back and read the rest of the blog posts if you need more detail than that. :-)
For now, I'm in a very different place. I'm getting through treatment and planning as if I'm going to complete the heavy stuff before the end of the year, move on to maintenance/prevention and hope that I never have to deal with this again. On the other hand, I'm realistic. There is always a chance that it could come back or show up in another location. No guarantees but I'm really not scared. None of us are guaranteed any time and you could sit around all day everyday and fear everything. You would never leave the house or do anything adventurous. You can't live like that. I'm not going to waste time worrying about "what if". I'll worry about it if they say, "We've found something." Until then, I have a family to care for and a life to live. Why in the world would I waste time with worrying and miss out on what's here and now and WONDERFUL?!?
Have a blessed day my friends, life is beautiful. Don't miss out!
Love to all,
Andee
- When I called Bobby to tell him I had found something
- When I LOST MY MIND while waiting on the biopsy results
- The day we told the family.
As you know by now, I did not have a source tumor anywhere else. The cancer started where we found it and you can go back and read the rest of the blog posts if you need more detail than that. :-)
For now, I'm in a very different place. I'm getting through treatment and planning as if I'm going to complete the heavy stuff before the end of the year, move on to maintenance/prevention and hope that I never have to deal with this again. On the other hand, I'm realistic. There is always a chance that it could come back or show up in another location. No guarantees but I'm really not scared. None of us are guaranteed any time and you could sit around all day everyday and fear everything. You would never leave the house or do anything adventurous. You can't live like that. I'm not going to waste time worrying about "what if". I'll worry about it if they say, "We've found something." Until then, I have a family to care for and a life to live. Why in the world would I waste time with worrying and miss out on what's here and now and WONDERFUL?!?
Have a blessed day my friends, life is beautiful. Don't miss out!
Love to all,
Andee